Love isn't love unless it's given away!

I always hear stuff at the most opportune moment.  A moment that can never be replaced.  I always hear this song but for some reason it struck a HUGE chord today as I drove down the road.  I drove to a place where love between two people may or may not exist.  It's not shown, and where these two people have a hard time showing it to others.  I don't really understand.  You can look at Colby and I in public or at home and see the love between us.  The love is deep, it's real, and it's beyond measure.  It's a love that is existant everywhere we turn.  Whether I'm risking my life for a few limbs, or sitting on the couch watching a movie.  He is loving me!  Yesterday we bought some firewood, and the kind gentleman delivered it to the bed of my truck here at the office.  I got it back to the apartment.  Naturally it had to be unloaded piece by piece as we could not lift the palet ourselves!  I climbed in the bed of the truck to get after it, and all I heard from him was "baby please don't fall." There were a few times where this nearly happened, but the love in his eyes as he watched my every move in the back of that truck were unexplainable.  So with that, I give you this!

Give It Away
(Michael W. Smith / Wayne Kirkpatrick / Amy Grant)



She asked him for forever
And a promise that would last
He said, "Babe, you know I love you
But I can't commit to that"
She said "Love isn't love
'Til you give it away"
A father lived in silence
Saw his son become a man
There was a distance felt between them
'Cause he could not understand
That love isn't love
'Til you give it away
You gotta give it away


Chorus:
As we live
Moving side by side
May we learn to give
Learn to sacrifice

We can entertain compassion
For a world in need of care
But the road of good intentions
Doesn't lead to anywhere
'Cause love isn't love
'Til you give it away
You gotta give it away

Chorus

Bridge:
Love is like a river
Flowing down from the giver of life
We drink from the water
And our thirst is no longer denied
You gotta give it away
Chorus

There was a man who walked on water
He came to set the people free
He was the ultimate example
Of what love can truly be
'Cause his love was his life
And he gave it away
You gotta give it away
Chorus

Like I said, I was driving down the road of life when I heard this.  I go back to class tonight and sometimes I wonder what I could do if it weren't for the support of Colby!  He has supported me and rooted for me in my corner for many years now!  I'm so blessed to be able to say that I love him so very much, and his love for me is deeply rooted as well.  I know that we have been blessed with each other. 

God's love for us is much more than any woman or man could ever give us.  I would say that a child's love is much like God's.  It's not conditional at all.  Children love with all they have and they definitely give love away.  Have you ever heard a child say I love you and it not sound so genuine and so true?  God's love is much like that.  Children love us right where we are, faults, flaws, and imperfections!  They just love!  God loves us RIGHT WHERE WE ARE, faults, flaws, and imperfections.  I know my God loves me because he is working in my heart and through me DAILY!  Love is when you sacrifice your one and ONLY Son to suffer and die for someone else's sins so that they may live eternally!  Now that is love!

Love isn't love 'til you give it away! 

Amazing Love!

Last night was rather awesome and yesterday too.  Everyday with a God who loves me is just amazing as well. But last night really proved how much someone else loves me.  Sometimes we as couples say or do things that my may very well hurt or offend the other when it is not meant to.  It happens, we realize this, generally talk it over, apologize and move on about our day.  Used to when something happened we didn't talk it over, apologize, but mearly moved on about our day.  How amazing that these things can change and it's okay.  I used to be afraid to say anything because I was afraid that the angry words and other things would start to fly.  I didn't cry I would just go about my day.  Yesterday somethings were said.  I pondered on how to talk about it and to let him know how I felt.  I stood in the kitchen and cried, not knowing what to do and super confused.  This showed a lot to him.  It showed that I was not okay.  We talked things over and at the end of it all, we both apologized, he came over he hugged me and I proceeded to talk about some other things.  It's always better to talk about somethings when the door is open vs. making an awkward situation.  This meant a lot yesterday.  It meant that we had come to believe in a higher power and that by making God the center of our relationship, we could finally be free of all the anger between each other when things like this happened.  It was once that we let things build and build and build before something would finally happen and we were like two atomic bombs going off under this one roof.  God is awesome!


What amazing things can happen when we allow God to become the center of our relationships and our lives!  

I am beautiful!

I hear this song all the time and I always think about what this song means to me. 


"Beautiful" by Mercy Me


The days will come when you don't have the strength

When all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart they'd see too much


You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are made so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
You're beautiful


And praying that you have the heart to find
Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
And they are nothing in the shadow of the cross


You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are made so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
You're beautiful


Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skys above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to death


You're beautiful
You're beautiful
In His eyes


You're beautiful
You were meant for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're meant for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His


There is a video about how he came to write this song and it has to do with the ways of the world and his daughters.  He sees how the world influences and sells to little girls, to make them more beautiful or more popular or just more loved. 


The truth of the matter is that there is a worldly person that does value are beauty, and someone who does think we are beautiful, but there is a bigger much more powerful man who loves me blemishes and all.  I'm not talking about my wonderful boyfriend Colby, I'm talking about the Almighty God.  He loves me for me, not for what I wear or how I look.  He loves my heart even though it has it's own blemishes.  I have faults and I'm not perfect and he loves me for those too.  How awesome is that?!  I have not been told I'm beautiful in a long time, and this song says it all.  I have a purpose in life, and what that is I do not know but there is purpose in everything I do everyday.  He has a purpose for me.  I'm waiting anxiously to see what it is.  Perhaps its what I've been led to do and that is care for people day in and day out.  To care for the sick and help make them well or to care for the dying to make them comfortable in their last days or moments of life and to comfort their families.  I want people to be comfortable in life.  More importantly I want people to know that they too are beautiful in His eyes. 


I was driving today, and I thought to myself, those words you are beautiful are so powerful.  While I have not heard them from a man I love dearly in a while, I know I'm beautiful because someone so much more important thinks I am.  I am sacred.  I am a Child of God and I'm sacred to Him.  I'm supposed to spread his word to all that will listen.  I am treasured.  As a child of God he loves me and treasures me everyday, I'm like a rare gem.  He has protected me through many of lifes trials and tribulations and for that I'm eternally grateful.  Maybe we don't recognize Him at that very instance but there are things that happen that make us realize that at that very moment He was there with us, protecting us and treasuring us, trying to keep us safe.    More importantly I am His.  I am a Child of God.  I was created for God's purpose.  None of us are accidents we are loved and valued.  Our children do not belong to us I once read.  God has blessed us with them for a short period of time to raise, love, and more importantly teach them the ways of the world.  But most of all he wants us as parents to teach them about Him, and to show them His undying love for us.


God loves us to DEATH!