Saturday, November 24, 2007


Well, things on the dating scene are doing pretty good. In the last post I went on a date with a guy named Eric and we had a great time. We're still talking and hanging out and stuff. He left this morning and will be back on Thursday. Then we have the company Christmas party on Saturday, woohooo!!!! People will get to meet him. I'm not sure if I'm excited or scared. I think he's a nice guy so it doesn't matter to me what everyone else thinks. Anyway, we've just been enjoying eachothers company which is nice. It's nice to carry on a conversation with someone who isn't three years old, if you know what I mean.

Anyway, Thanksgiving was good, I suppose, Brooke acted like a little terd bucket the entire day, my mom was sick, but everything went well. I hope that everyone had a fantastic Thanksgiving. We're not that far from Christmas so I hope everyone enjoys the rest of the year because before too long it will be gone too.


Sunday, November 18, 2007

Coming to a close...

So many things are coming to a close.

Thanksgiving is THREE days away.

Christmas is THIRTY-SIX days away.

New Years is FOURTY-THREE days away.

My 24th birthday is SEVENTY-SEVEN days away.

Brooke's 4th birthday is ONE HUNDRED- FOURTY ONE days away.

I went on a date last night with a super nice guy. I really enjoyed having dinner and a movie with him. He's new to Middle of nowhere America, and he's in the oilfield, so my job and his job relate very closely. It takes my job to make his work. What a mess it is. First he came and picked me up from my sisters apartment. Then we went for dinner and drinks at a local Italian food place called Luigi's. It's super good, with super good food. Then we went and saw Beowulf, it was very interesting for an animated movie, however I do NOT suggest it for small children. It gets pretty raunchy at points. Then he took me back to my sisters. We've been talking for a week so it didn't make it so akward when I first met him, because we got to carry on real conversations not the kind where you ask weird questions. I had a lot of fun with him and I really wished we could have spent more time together because I didn't want the evening to end, but unfortunately I had to go get Brooke from the babysitters. I'm really glad that I met him, he's a nice guy.

Anyway, my dad has 4 weeks or so left of radiation, and I'm so blessed because I can't wait for him to be himself again, it's been pretty rough lately. His attitude has gone down the drain and it doesn't take much to set him off right now. He has very little patience. In fact they let me take my moms new 2007 Chevy Silverado Crew Cab on my date because my car is out of commission, and he got mad because I laid the backseats back down where they were supposed to be because I thought it looked nice. Then I got in trouble for throwing some translucent brown lettuce away in the trash, because he didn't want it to go in the trash but straight to the dumpster so it didn't stink. I understood, however it was nothing to blow up about, simply go dig it out of the trash, but instead he blew up at my mom and then at me. His fuse is very very short and he's a ticking time bomb right now. I can't imagine having to work with him right now and I'm so very thankful I don't work with him anymore. I'm sure his superintendents just leave him alone and deal with things themselves. He's very tired and some of the side affects are really starting to affect him. It sucks but such is life and hopefully after this there will be nothing more for my dad, at least I pray for that.

Mom's health is getting a little better so we think.

With Christmas fast approaching I'm tempted to just skip it all together. I don't want to spend my holidays with people I really don't care to spend them with, I just want to be together with Brooke. We were supposed to have it at our house this year, but with Dad's radiation and Mom's physical therapy I think it's going to be hard to get everything done in a timely manner. We're going to see if my aunt will take it this year and then we'll take her holiday next year. Mom says that if she can't do it then we're just going to call off family Christmas all together.

Oh yes, and less I forget my car. A couple of weeks ago the fuel pump went out so we replaced it. Then exactly a week later my transmission began slipping. My dad replaced the fuel filter and fluid just like the owners manual suggested. So we took it to a transmission shop and they said the transmission was totally gone, they couldn't even rebuild it, that's how bad it was. So then they said they could put a new one in for 2-4000, or we could get a salvaged one for about 1/4 that price. The car isn't worth putting a new transmission in, so it's sitting at a auto salvage place where they are going to replace the transmission with a new one, that's going to cost me $1147, that's labor and the transmission. So that's the best deal. When I get it back I'm going to take care of it and work on selling it next year and getting something more dependable for Brooke and I.

Anyway, sorry everyone has gotten the brunt of everything lately. It's been really crazy in my world and I don't really know where to begin.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Many things...

I know I haven't posted in nearly a month, but things have been crazy and hectic.

Work has been a nightmare. School has consumed every part of my body. Brooke has not had a great mother, because she's been busy with School and work. My dad's health has declined yet again. My car has broke on two different occassions with two very different problems. I'm left driving a 1985 Chevrolet Silverado that guzzles gas. is work...that's just it.

School is coming to a close and there is so much to get done before the end of the semester which ends the beginning of December. I spend more time reading and doing homework then I do picking my nose, wiping my butt, and playing with Brooke, which is rather depressing.

I've tried to be the best mother to Brooke that I can be given the circumstances with work and school. I'm not there for her as much as I would like to be and I hope that someday she can forgive me for that and not resent me forever. But I love that girl with everything that I have, every cell in my body.

My dad found out that his cancer is back therefore he starts radiation treatments tomorrow. It's rather depressing that it had to come back, and I'm really sad for him.

The fuel pump on my car went out a week ago last Friday so my dad replaced it over that weekend. Then last Friday my car started doing funny stuff with the transmission, I really hope its not burnt up. Therefore I'm driving the thing I drove in highschool 6 years ago...eeks!!! It guzzles gas pretty badly, and bad things always seem to happen to my car inevitebly after I just fill up with gas. Maybe I need a battery powered car...hmmm...what a thought.

I'm mad at God. How could he let this happen to a great man, a man who has done nothing but love his family unconditionally. My car, my dad, my life has seemed to go down the tubes in the past week and a half. I'm pissed off. I'd rather just go crawl under a rock and die, because it seems that everyone around me is dying or has cancer, and I really just can not deal with it anymore.

That's that, comments are welcome as always, leaving your best wishes or whatever.