Light On

Dearest Daughter,

  I know you’re struggling mentally. Life isn’t easy, and it’s full of twists and turns, many of which you never see coming.  Friends are hard in the early years, and maintaining relationships is even harder.  I have been battling depression since after you were born, it’s not your fault, always remember that.  I know it’s hard, and somedays its all I have to get from one day to the next, and often times you never see that side.  I talk to dad about it when he gets home, I talk to him, have a conversation with him, and I’m real with him.  I hide nothing.  He’s my best friend in life and the person who can help me through so much. Someday you will have that special someone who you can talk to about it all.

  I know that talking to me is hard, sometimes its not easy, and you think I will judge you.  You don’t need to judgment, you need someone to listen to you, and to give you loving advice. Dad and I can be that person for you.  We have struggled through things in our lives just like you are experiencing now, but we have to leave the light on for each other.

  I was watching a movie the other day and the ending song said “If you leave the light on, then I’ll leave the light on.”  We have to leave the light on for each other.  I have to leave the light on so that you feel like you can talk to me at any time.  I will always listen.  You have to leave the light on and remain open to talking to me.  It’s like a door opening, if we leave the door open at all times, then the open communication is there.  I don’t want you talking to other moms unless you plan to tell me as well. They can’t help you like your own mom can, and I need and want to know what’s going on in your world.  I love you very much, and we have to be open with each other.  Know at the end of the day that you’ll still be dancing!


So to you I say “If you leave the light on, then I’ll leave the light on.”

"Light On" by Maggie Rogers

Would you believe me now
If I told you I got caught up in a wave?
Almost gave it away
Would you hear me out if I told you I was terrified for days?
Thought I was gonna break

Oh, I couldn't stop it
Tried to slow it all down
Crying in the bathroom
Had to figure it out
With everyone around me saying
You must be so happy now

Oh, if you keep reaching out
Then I'll keep coming back
And if you're gone for good
Then I'm okay with that
If you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on (Light on, light on, light on)

And I am finding out
There's just no other way
That I'm still dancing at the end of the day
If you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on (Light on, light on, light on)

And do you believe me now
That I always had the best intentions, babe?
Always wanted to stay
Can you feel me now
That I'm vulnerable in oh-so many ways?
Oh, and I'll never change

Oh, I couldn't stop it
Tried to figure it out
But everything kept moving
And the noise got too loud
With everyone around me saying
"You should be so happy now"

Oh, if you keep reaching out
Then I'll keep coming back
And if you're gone for good
Then I'm okay with that
And if you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on (Light on, light on, light on)

And I am finding out
There's just no other way
That I'm still dancing at the end of the day
If you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on (Light on, light on, light on)

Oh, leave the light on
Oh, would you leave the light on?

If you keep reaching out
Then I'll keep coming back
But if you're gone for good
Then I'm okay with that
If you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on (Light on, light on, light on)

And I am finding out
There's just no other way
That I'm still dancing at the end of the day
If you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on (Light on, light on, light on)

Oh, if you leave the light on
Then I'll leave the light on
Oh, if you leave the light on