Monday, October 31, 2005

Letters from War

Mark Schultz
Letters From War

She runs to the mailbox
On that bright summers day
Found a letter from her son
In a war far away

He spoke of the weather
And good friends that he'd made
Said I'd been thinking 'bout dad
And the life that he had
Thats why I'm here today
And that the end he said
You are what I'm fighting for
It was the first of the letters from war

She started writing

You're good and you're brave
What a father that you'll be someday
Bring him home
Bring him safe

She wrote everynight as she prayed

Late in December
A day she'll not forget
Oh her tears stained the paper

With every word that she read

It said I was up on a hill
I was out there alone
When the shots all rang out
And bombs were exploding
And thats when I saw him
He came back to me
And though he was captured
A man set me free
And that man was your son

He asked me to write to you
I told him i would oh I swore
It was the last of the letters from war

And she prayed he was living
Kept on believing and wrote every night just to say

You're good and you're brave
What a father that you'll be someday
Bring him home
Bring him safe

Then two years later
Autumn leaves all around
A car pulled in the driveway
And she fell to the ground
And out stepped a captain
Where her boy used to stand

Said mom I'm following orders
From all of your letters
And I've come home again
He ran into hold her
And dropped all his bags on the floor
Holding all of her letters from war

Bring him home
Bring him home
Bring him home

Mark writes this about this song: "After my Great Grandma, Ebba Forsberg passed away, my great aunt and my cousin put together a scrapbook of her life. In it I found a letter that her son wrote to her while he was away in World War II. That letter and scrapbook were the inspiration for this song."

I believe that this is every parents wish for their children and others fighting for OUR freedom in a "war far away."

All I can say is Thank you and how can I ever repay you for the sacrifices you have made. THANK YOU FOR FIGHTING IN SOMETHING OUR COUNTRY BELIEVES IN AND SUPPORTS. WE LOVE YOU!!

Sunday, October 23, 2005

To be or not to be? That is the question!!

The last couple of days have been an inner war with myself. Its been quite interesting. To join the military or not to join. The other day I decided to donate to charity, it made me feel good about helping someone else, and then the memories started flooding back. When I was in the 7th grade my parents and I were watching a television show about women pilots in combat, thats when I decided that indeed I wanted to be in the military. Now, the dream, well...I should call them very strong feelings have come back. Every child has a dream to be a firefighter, policeman, architect, teacher, lawyer, doctor, or something else. The dream to be in the military has never faded as with most. Its still very much a part of my everday thinking.

What will I be when I grow up is a question I often ask myself, and the other day I answered it. I will go to school for the next couple of years to be a draftsman, yes ladies and gentlemen a draftsman, all the while letting Brooke get a little older. Then after finishing school and maybe working for 6 months or so joining either the AirForce or the Army. Its been an inner battle for the past couple of days, it is a dream that is not going away but the dream is getting stronger. I guess in a way you could say its haunting me.

My family comes from a long line of military men. My grandfather went to war, not sure which one. My great uncle served two tours of duty in the Vietnam war and was a POW, not something that is spoken of. Two of my cousins are JAG Lawyers. One of them had just left the Pentagon when the plane hit, thus going back inside to see if he could help any. My cousin has gone and served in Iraq once and says he'll be going next year. Thats all on my mom's side. I'm not sure about my dads side.

This week has been really stressful due to all of this. Please if you have any comments please make sure to leave them.

To join or not to join? That is the question!!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Rather exciting...not so exciting...well, kind of...

This weekend was definitely an interesting one to say the least. Talked to Paige on Friday during lunch, and she had gotten Brooke a mum, then I found out later, that they had in fact secured some cheerleading outfits for Brooke...hmmmm.

Friday afternoon we ran around town looking for shoes and tights, and found some, courtesy of PayLess...YIPPIE. They are awesomely cute shoes, and well, tights are tights. We went to the parade and watched Paige ride on a motorcycle with Mr. Calt. WOO WOO!!! Anyway, we were bombed by candy, which most of it ended up in the flooded curb water..yuck...and at points we had to shield Brooke from the flying anyone who's ever been hit in the head with one, all I can say is it hurts. Then we went to the PepRally and watched Paige cheer, and Brooke got to go on the field with her for a little while. They were so cute together. I'll post pictures at a later date. Then, this is the exciting part, they take me back to my car, which we left on the street to ride together to the peprally, and wouldn't you know it, Kourtney lost her keys. We looked high and low until I finally broke down to call dad, you guessed it, I'm sure he was probably very angry. Mrs. Bates and I looked high and low for them out in the street, no such luck. Paige came back with her car, and we sat in it for a little while and then while looking at Brooke's diaper bag, I realized there was a pocket we had failed to look in. I looked and what do you know, they were in that pocket. So I screamed and cried and called my dad and told him to turn around and go home. Thanked them for watching out for me and such, and we were on our way home.

Saturday we woke up late...8:30, which is late for Brooke, and we were on the run from the moment our feet hit the ground. We got dressed and ready to go, got the coats in the car, because it was looking mighty chilly out, and were on our way. It was a mad house there. We got there and Paigers put Brooke's mum on, and we headed up to our seats. Brooke was really good while we were there. Steven Anderson came to join us for the 1.5 quarter left and we had a good time together. While not much was said, just being there with him was amazing. He looked stunning in his uniform. Then I got a call from my sister Celeste asking me to come watch Zachary's game. We were just a few minutes away so I said what the heck. We went and watched and weren't out there more than 10 minutes before it starting raining, so we sat it out in the back of her car.

Then, we went to Mr. Gatti's when one of my nephews friends came out of the bathroom and told us that there was a man looking under the bathroom stalls. We quickly finished eating and got the heck out of there. Then we went home.

My weekend was good, just a blowing and a going. Thanks to the Bates and the Calts for everything.

Friday, October 14, 2005

God's Blessings

It's interesting how when you stop to consider how much God has and is blessing you is when you really realize HOW MUCH GOD IS BLESSING YOU!!! He is always amazing me.

My daughter is the world's biggest blessing to my life. How blessed I am at the privaledge of being a mom, it's something not everyone gets to experience. She is an AMAZING little girl, whom I love with all my heart. She is the wood that keeps my fire going, the apple in my eye, the lump on my hip, and most of all my life. She is walking, talking up a storm, and doing things even I never dreamed of her doing. She always somehow seems to amaze me. Last night for example she was eating really well with the fork and only dropped a few pieces of corn. I've never seen her eat corn that well off the fork, she always managed to dump it in her lap. WOW!!!

My wonderful friends The Bates family. I have never really realized how much a part of our lives they were, but here it is a blessing. I dated their son for a short while and that went bad, considering he called me from jail the other day. I got to be pretty good friends with the rest of the family, and have an amazing babysitter in Paige. She loves Brooke so much and they always buy her stuff, they're almost as bad as grandparents. I must add that Brooke loves everyone in that family a lot too. Paige called me today with some news, not bad news but news that they had gotten Brooke a mum for homecoming for Midland Christian which is this weekend. I began crying, and that's when I realized the blessings God has bestowed upon me. HE IS AN AWESOME GOD.

My family has got to be one of the two biggest blessings in my life. They have supported me and stuck by me through my pregnancy and been supportive of my situation. They let me remain in their home and from time to time helped me put gas in my car or buy diapers for Brooke.

He is showing me everyday just how many blessings I really do have. How many blessings do you have in your life, or have you really stopped to smell the flowers lately? He will simply AMAZE YOU!!!

Thursday, October 13, 2005

The Weather Outside is Frightful...

A flower out behind our office

Its funny how much people complain about not getting any rain, but they don't thank our Heavenly Father when it does rain because they're too busy complaining about how it's raining. Do you know someone like this?

Well, the rain is here and there is nothing we can do about it. It is raining rather heavily today and I'm enjoying it. Okay, so my hair doesn't look all that great this morning. But I will have one bad hair day just because it is raining. There's always tomorrow for my hair.

The cotton farmers are enjoying this along with my nephews little pig, Daisy. I'm actually enjoying the fall like weather we have been having. It's pretty nice because we usually have just Summer and Winter. Who knew there was a Spring and Fall? Not here in West Texas. Is that when the leaves change colors and fall gracefully to the ground and the beautiful wild flowers bloom and fill the fields with sheets of vibrant color? I happen to enjoy looking at the field in front of our office that is a sheet of yellow, and the field behind us is full of God's painting of different colors. He is truly amazing in creating such wonderful life paintings in front of our very eyes. I also like the wildlife that spring brings around, baby birds chirp in the sunny trees, butterflies flutter from flower to flower with elegance and grace like a swan, and the hummingbirds come to my house to see if my mom has put out their feeder. The baby kittens frolic in the front yard, and watch with amazement as the bunnies do the same thing.

Find something to thank God for today. Whether it be the sun smiling upon us showering us with love, or the clouds that fill the sky and then drop buckets of God's love upon us, almost as if all the angels in Heaven were rejoicing with tears of joy.
Here is a poem I's short and sweet. Enjoy!!

The Rain

Pitter-patter, raindrops,
Falling from the sky;
Here is my umbrella
To keep me safe and dry!

When the rain is over,
And the sun begins to glow,
Little flowers start to bud,
And grow and grow and grow!

Friday, October 07, 2005

Well Well!!!

Mr. Steven Anderson is back in town. I saw him Wednesday and he looks GREAT!!! I'm happy to get to see him again, but am really scared because I don't know whats going to happen between the two of us. Who knows, but God will take care of it all. I am confident in that, He's shown me that already.

Other than that nothing exciting going on except for a semi interesting day at work!! It is possible to have a semi-interesting day at work.

Have a good weekend all!!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Steven Anderson

Okay everyone I forgot to keep counting down, but today is the day that Mr. Steven Anderson, my love, comes home from training. YIPPIE!!!

Yesterday was his birthday and he is now a whoppin 20. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!!!


Went to Lubbock this past weekend, and boy did I have fun. I got in Friday evening, and we ate dinner, went to the fair, and then went out to Ransom Canyon. I got to spend some time with Megans friends, which are pretty funny.

About the fair. We all know how nasty and perverted carnies are...ICK!!! Meg and I were walking with Raldy and Jenny, when this one guy hollers out "10 cents ladies, pimpin' ain't easy!" We felt pretty weirded out by this, but on a good note we did see a "hot cop." Ooolala, we could've taken him home and had our way with him. Used his handcuffs...I think you get the picture.

Ransom Canyon was pretty fun in the dark with its winding roads, and where you get to cross the lake. Watched Clarrissa Explains It All, from like way back when, Reno 911... a must see for everyone.

Layne came over on Saturday night and we joked and cut up. It was good to get to spend some quality time with everyone, especially the people that are most important to you. Let me give you some background on everyone, Megan I have been best friends with since the 1st grade...yes my friends that is a long time. She was pretty much the only friend I had when I was pregnant and her and her family were there for me all the way. I was pretty grumpy in the end and I will agree with her in the sense that yes I was a "bitch." She is such an awesome friend. Layne I have known since I was a jr. so for about 5 years. I dated him back in high school and we have remained pretty close every since. You can make bets that when Layne and I are together there is trouble. We like to laugh and cut up and we even have clearance to touch each others that my friends is a revalation.

All in all I had lots of fun with Megan and her cats, and especially the slutties. Slutties are these little anime figurine's that you get out of a quarter machine type thing in Taiwan. They are very slutty. This is not their actual name but what Meg has dubbed them. Thanks Meg for a wonderful time in Lubbock. I love you lots.