Friday, June 30, 2006


Okay, so it won't let me upload the picture, but whoever was my 1000th visitor is my hero for the day!! Thanks to all who have supported me, laughed with me, and cried with me too. It's been an amazing journey, and I've loved every bit of it. This has definitely a place where I know that even if no one reads this I was able to write and vent.

Thanks everyone and there are more posts to come...WOOOHOO!!!!!!!!!


Today is Fortune Cookie Friday, and Kourtney has no fortune for today. Nothing telling me about the guy I'm going to get with in bed or anything. I know everyone must be bummed, but I'm at home lounging around on my rear fighting strep throat while the Brookers is in daycare playing with her friends. The folks are still on vacation so this house can be a very lonely place. It sucks rather bad. I'm watching Rosanne and I don't even like that show...What a loser. Anyway, today is usually the day that I go down to the Sonic down the street from the office and pick me up a number four grilled and a strawberry limeaid. Todays diet consists of pudding and applesauce. I managed to get some chips down last night, but I had to chew those until they were freaking baby food. I'm beginning to feel better as I'm on the downward slide of this mess. Yesterday was the worst as I lived on painkillers most of the day, which only made my face itch once they started wearing off, they did very little for the pain, I've figured out to just live off of hot tea and really cold applesauce, it feels good on the throat. I'm missing my co-workers as something interesting always happens on Fridays, and of coarse Megan, whom I sometimes go to lunch with on Fridays!! I'm bummed. The neighbors behind us are having a Firecracker Fandango tomorrow, we'll probably just listen as they party. Perhaps a few of the hotter ones will want to come over and swim in my wouldn't that be awesome. Not like Brooke and I will be going while I'm in this condition. Anyway, hope everyone has a fantastic weekend and everyone stays well. Until the next update America.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Laynes 21st Birthday Bash

Megan and I took Layne out for his 21st birthday. I went and picked him up on Friday evening, so that if he became too shitfaced I would be able to drive him home, since I was passing his house anyway. We get there to eat and drink, and he has forgotten his wallet, which contains the all important drivers license, and money. Megan and I had already decided that we would pick up his tab, I mean after all you only turn 21 once, right. We went back to Megans place and had some to drink, then we went and picked up Brooke and I took her home. Here are some pictures that resulted from a very interesting evening.

Apparently the US Government is using telephone poles as recruiting stations...hmmm...this was found on the side of Loop 250, they are stratigically placed on every other telephone pole, beginning at the start of the loop from old Hwy 80, and where you actually get on the loop. Interesting I may add.

Yea baby. This was before we started drinking. "Could you imagine us drunk?!" - Layne
Megan and Layne...

Friday, June 23, 2006


Today is Fortune Cookie Friday!!

Megan and I went to our usual eatery for the good ole Fortune Cookies, and we got some good eats, and the topic of our Friday posts.

We both got rather interesting fortunes to say the least, you can check hers out on her blog. Now remember that when you get a fortune, you have to add “in bed” to the end…it’s a Megan rule.

My Friday Fortune is:

“Now is a good time to explore – in bed.”

Alrighty then….you can go back to my last Fortune Cookie Friday and read my fortune there. What is up?

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Things from the Past!!!

As I sit here reading this girls blog about how her life sucks, and I’m sure it really does suck. I remember back to something my dad has said. If you are nice to people sometimes they take it differently. Meaning sometimes they take it as hey, I’ll let you get in my pants. When all you really wanted to do was be nice and be someone’s friend. Yet you are mistaken for your kindness and it turns into something more. I vividly recall this moment when I was a senior. There was this boy, whose name I don’t remember, and he was a freshman and new to the school. He apparently thought I was hot so he decided to give me a note. I didn’t want to be ugly to him, so I was nice polite and spoke to him. He took it as I was hitting on him. It was homecoming and it was obvious that he was looking for a date. He wanted me to come pick him up. Friday came, we didn’t speak during school hours, but he would call me continuously on the phone. He was obsessed. I didn’t come pick him up so he called my house 20 times and left many different messages. I was embarrassed. I had probably just scared him for life. I had done damage to someone I didn’t even know, and yet it was not intentional.

I’m not really sure as to why I’m a magnet for freaky guys!! Do you? I don’t seek to love many people; I just want to be friends with lots of people. I like people, and I consider myself a people person. But I always attract weirdly odd people….WHATS WRONG WITH ME!! I did have this great boyfriend one time, Jason. I screwed that one up. He didn’t know what he wanted with me, and I was so confused by his confusion I didn’t know what to do. He was truly a really great guy, and had I just stuck it out with him, I probably wouldn’t have Brooke, and I possibly wouldn’t still be living in Middle of no where, Texas. I don’t know, but everything happens for a reason.

I would like to share about how our relationship came to be. After graduating high school, I went back to help my old track coach, doing what I loved best, keeping times, distances, what not. I was in the training room quite a bit, when I decided to introduce myself, and tell this man, whom I belonged to. I guess we hit it off then. But then that weekend, we had a track meet in Kermit. He started hanging out by me, while I was doing my job and picking on me heavily. Well, one thing led to another and he asked if I wanted to go with him to lunch. I said I wasn’t that hungry, but I would ride with him. I just got me some French fries. Then he told me as we were sitting there, that he was going to pay for my food. I said that was alright. Then one evening he had just gotten back from Blaine’s Picnic in San Angelo, and he came by Subway, where I was employed at the time, left me his business card, and told me he lived in 713. I went by after work, since I got off at like 8 or something. Then things began happening, not those kinds of things, but we started bonding and connecting. On Easter, I went to work early so that I could go to the ballgame with him. He came by, got a sandwich and left an Easter card on my car. How sweet. When he would leave town, he would make me play this hide and seek game, only with cards, and prizes, and everyday, there would be a new card, and a new prize. I LOVED IT!! It was fun. I loved him, and I still do. We had our hard times, and things were rough at times, just as in all relationships. He was there all during my pregnancy supporting me every step of the way, and he was there after she was born as well. The most meaningful thing is him coming to visit me the day after she was born.

This man definitely made a huge impact in my life. I definitely want to find someone like him, with the same great attitude and outlook on life. If you’re out there, know that you DID make a difference in my life.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Broken Spirit next?

I am broken, along with everything else that I seem to own. I don’t know that I’ve given up on hope, or if it gave up on me. They say that everything happens in three’s. We’re going to find out. First, my laptop mouse breaks, causing me to use the little touch pad mouse thing, which is pretty inconvenient. Then my cell phone decides that it’s going to just not going to cooperate. I called to have the mouse replaced, done. Now we are working on the cell phone. Apparently this is something to do with perhaps the electrical wiring of the phone. I can’t talk to anyone other than by headset or speaker phone. Frankly you can’t walk through Wal-mart on speaker phone. Not everyone needs to know what you and your boy toy did last night. Not, that I have one, but still. So we’ll see. What’s the third you may ask, well, I have no idea, as it has not happened yet. Although, I did see a little maroon Saturn being towed away, just like my car a year ago. It made me sad, and perhaps this is some insight as to what might be coming my way. I’ve been in too many accidents to know that they are avoidable, but sometimes can’t be. I’ve been in situations, the accuser, and the victim. Neither are fun, honestly. Have fun contemplating what’s next in the drama of “The Day of My Life.” Next episode Kourtney talks about how it went and what happened. Whether they replaced her phone, or if she was just screwed for the next year. Stay tuned for episode two.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

The Past on Two Legs

So the past has two legs. Two legs you may say...yes two legs, two arms, and the rest you know about. The past is male. This man I call my ex, which is from when I was 18, always calls when his WIFE is out of town. He always wants me to come over and see him or go out of town with him to somewhere. No is always the answer, for heaven's sake he is married. And if I were really mean I would call his wife when I know that he is at work and inform her of these occurances, but I don't want to ruin the marriage because she will find out and it won't be pretty. However, I will not be the barrer of bad news to his family, that's his job. It would be totally different if I were friends with he AND his wife, but I am not. I do know her from when they dated way back when, but I'm not familiar with her now. I feel kind of creeped out because he is a pervert, and he has asked me to sleep with him many of times since they've been married. This girl is not giving in, she is not going to ruin someone's marriage. I will not ALLOW it to happen, nor will I be the fuel to feed the fire to his family. I am much stronger than that, although some may dissagree.

You should check out Megan's blog as she had an ex boyfriend encounter yesterday as well. Perhaps yesterday was Ex boyfriend day, and no one told us.

We went to the baseball game last night with my dad, I'll post pictures later.

Friday, June 16, 2006



So it's Fortune Cookie Friday!!

Here is my fortune:

"Find release from your cares, have a good time" - in bed

Hell yea...I'll have a good time in bed...oh wait, don't you have to have a man to have a good time in bed with? Well, never mind then.

Visit Megan to see if she has posted hers yet, and if not let her know how behind she is.

Thursday, June 15, 2006


When does this week end?! It has been a rather long week! Brooke has been so grumpy and fussy when we get home in the evenings. My mom is leaving town tomorrow and will be gone until Sunday. Then my parents leave for Missouri next Saturday and return July 3rd. They were supposed to leave later and get back on the 5th, but I expressed my concerns about being home on the fourth of July with a two year old. Considering my neighbors caught the back pasture on fire last year!! I told my dad that under no circumstances would I be fighting a fire with a two year old on my hip and watching my house burn down all while my parents were out of town. So I feel a little bit relieved that they’re plans are changing. I have a wedding to attend the Saturday they leave for my childhood best friend! I got myself into a situation that I cannot seem to dig my way out of!! Oops!! I’m working on the side doing some drafting for some people we do business with, and I need to get that finished! My house is a total disaster! I need to buy some tile for the bathroom and get to work on that!! Hmm…Do I hear any volunteers?! It’s just the self stick tile, but none the less it doesn’t do itself, and it’s a makeover to my bathroom, which I just redid in a frog theme for Brooke. Its some beautiful tile that will go down to replace the yellow marble linoleum that is way outdated and has been there since 1983!!! GROSS!! It looks like someone missed the damn toilet and peed all over the damn floor. There is hairspray buildup I’m sure from my sisters, considering I did not grow up in the hairspray era. They grew up in the day of BIG HAIR!! I mean they really had regulations on how tall your bangs could be!!! So the floor is black in some areas and rather noticeable. It’s kind of gross if you ask me. The big part will be scrubbing the floor to get that crap off!! This could take a while.

There is my next couple of weeks at a glance!! I need a hot sexy man to come do the bathroom!! Any volunteers?!! Oh yea…and this girl will probably be doing it herself, without her daddy’s help for once!!!

Well, Brooke and I went on our picnic on Friday to a rather cool park that they’ve just remodeled. It was nice. I’ll post more about it and pictures later.

Friday, June 09, 2006

For my friend Megan the day after her birthday:

This is my beautiful friend Megan. She has been my best friend since the 1st grade. Let’s do some calculations, so for 16 years we have been inseparable. When I was pregnant she was my biggest supporter. She even carried around the pregnancy test for me and we saw an old classmate in Wal-Mart that particular night. She didn’t care. She was the first to get the call after the first test. She reassured me to keep taking them, since after all 3 did come to a box. Better be safe than sorry. She went with me to my first OBGYN appointment, and she was a shoulder that I cried on after it was all over. I cried today because yesterday was her birthday, she is now the big 22. Welcome to the 22 club. She has been there for me for so long that it’s hard to not be able to see her. When she lived in Lubbock, if she came home we were not apart but to sleep. I would also make weekend trips up there while being pregnant to spend time with her, because I was dealing with depression and she was my get away. Friday mornings I would get up, get dressed and decide that at 5 I would be on my way to Lubbock, a few phone calls later and I was packed and ready to hit the road. This

continued until it became too uncomfortable to travel, and then I went no where. Toward the end of my pregnancy I made one last trip up there to see that girl, and it was long overdue. She was the main hostess of my first baby shower, and a great one at that. We disagreed a lot and she would tell you that yes, I was a real bitch during this time, but she didn’t give me up as a friend. We dealt accordingly knowing that all too soon this time would pass. She was there with me every step of the way, encouraging me and guiding me down this seemingly long and endless road. She was the first of my friends to hold the baby, and that was a joyous moment, although she was scared that she would somehow harm this little fragile baby, we called Cornelius for sooo long. I just hope that I have been as great of a friend to her as she’s been to me. I LOVE THIS GIRL so much, it’s hard to imagine my life without her. She’s the only one who has really stuck around after having Brooke. I know that she is my one TRUE friend, and that no matter what we go through together, she will always be there.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Picnicking in a beautiful park...

Brooke and I went on a picnic on Friday, and I enjoyed it so much that I think we’ll make it a tradition and perhaps try out all the parks in town. I enjoyed watching her play and only having to get onto her a few times for running near the street or something, but overall she was really good and I think she enjoyed the freedom. She likes to swing so she did that a lot, climbed on things, ran around and just enjoyed getting some fresh air for two hours. Before we left we sat on a blanket and ate some fruit and she really enjoyed that. We went to HEB got sandwiches, chex mix, fruit, Capri Sun’s, and water. Next time we will take some balls and play out in the grass. I love the park we visited it’s so beautiful and serene. I will take pictures and post them for everyone to see. I didn’t get any pictures of Brooke but the park itself is beautiful. For a while it was just me and Brooke and a few walkers, and then people started coming from everywhere. We had so much fun. I love to watch her run and play and just have a good time. It makes me happy to see her so delighted at the simplest things. Fridays are definitely picnic and ice cream days for us. If you’d like to go with us on our fun Fridays then contact me here!!!

Oh yes and please this is our first hurray at picnicking so if you have any ideas as to some food that I could take a long that is easy please comment here as well. I’m new at this kind of thing. She doesn’t eat much meat but I’m trying my hardest to change that, she’s in love with chicken and tuna, a long with hot dog weenies. So if you have any thoughts, feel free to put them here.


Valentine's Day 1995

I know it’s not Valentine’s Day, but I don’t care.

While sitting here I remember a particular night of my very young life. I was in the 5th grade and they had a Valentine’s Day dance at the school. I tried to put myself out there when I was young and participated in everything they had, fun nights, dances, you know elementary things. I was not popular, I did not wear the best clothes and I was somewhat okay with that. My parents were trying to pay for my oldest sisters wedding at that time! So I went to the dance with hope that someone there might ask me to dance! Well, my hopes were shattered! I got to dance with someone and that’s because their girlfriend, who was my best friend at the time, told them to come dance with me. So we danced, I can’t say it was all star filled because I knew the truth, he was forced to. After the night ended and everyone went home, I was still hopeless. On Monday everyone came back to school, and my friend, the girlfriend, told me that after he danced with me he told her that he was going to have to go home and burn his clothes! I was not nasty, I did not stink, but I definitely didn’t wear the clothes he did either! Did I mention that we were poor? I tried to let it go, but it today has come back to haunt me!! How could my best friend let him say something like that and not stand up for me? I know I was young, but at that age your body is starting to change, well at least mine was. I had hit puberty and that was traumatizing to me. Not to mention that my class was still adjusting to the new teacher because our first teacher Mrs. Carder had left us at Christmas to move back to her hometown with her husband. I remember this event because I wondered if the new teacher would be able to deal with my ADHD as Mrs. Carder had, and she assured me that everything would be okay. She wrote letters and what not, but it was hard with her gone. This was a long time ago, just think 11 years and its still haunting me. I’ve never been ugly to him since that very day. I let it go, but think that could possibly be part of my insecurities. I bet he doesn’t even remember that day at all.

Set in my ways? Stubborn?

Is it wrong to not want to talk to someone on a Monday morning? Or perhaps did I come into the office in one mindset, to piss people off? Why do I feel that I don’t really want to speak to this person unless deemed necessary? Of course if I huffed and puffed through the office like I was mad all the time no one would want to talk to me either, I guess turnabout is fair play.

But don’t you just love people who do not pick up after themselves. Makes more than one pot of coffee but won’t clean it up at the end of the day. Takes the last cup but doesn’t go get anymore, or tell anyone. Expects everyone’s opinion to be the same as theirs, and doesn’t give a crap about what you think. They’re always right. Thinks ground squirrels are prairie dogs, and begs to differ when you tell them differently. Knows everything about drugs on the market because they’ve been on so many, so suddenly they are a pharmacist. Is paranoid and thinks everyone is out to get them, which they’re not. Stares at you because they has nothing else better to do. Makes everyone’s business their own because they doesn’t have any. Doesn’t like “mixed” babies because they are going to feel different in this world, even if you treat them normally. Doesn’t like the fact that I did not file for child support, and they can kiss my rear. Probably doesn’t like the fact that I too have a “mixed” child, but I don’t care because she’s beautiful. They never compliment anyone because I’m sure they don’t like themselves. Thinks everyone is a dumb ass, and they are smarter than everyone else.

Frankly I get tired of telling people like this that they look nice, or that I noticed they got a haircut, or anything else. When they act like you should give everything to them and cater to them. So, perhaps I’m stubborn or perhaps I was brought up with a few manors. Or it just could be that I’m very set in my ways.

Make a nice day!!

Friday, June 02, 2006

Random photos of my family!!!

My neice Lyndsey (7), nephew Zachary (9), and my daughter Brooke (2). A trip to Target, the French Department Store.

My sister, Celeste, and I bbq'in and having a good time...
My dad playing his guitar in the backyard. It's his hobby and he's good at it too. Brooke has always liked to be around when he played too.

Paul Harvey

Paul Harvey writes:

We tried so hard to make things better for our kids, that we made them worse. I'd like better

I'd really like for them to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream, and leftover meat loaf sandwiches. I really would.

I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated.

I hope you learn to make your own bed, mow the lawn, and wash the car.

And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen.

It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep.

I hope you get a black eye for fighting for something you believe in.

I hope you have to share a bathroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him.

When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister want to tag along, I hope you'll let him/her.

I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely.

On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your driver to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your mom.

If you want a slingshot, I hope your Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one.

I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.

When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.

I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a boy/girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like.

May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue to a frozen flagpole.

I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it. And if a friend offers you dope or a joint, I hope you realize he's not your friend.

I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandma/Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle.

May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays.

I hope your mother punishes when you throw a baseball through your neighbor's window and that she hugs and kisses you at Hanukah/Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand.

These things I wish for you -- tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. To me, its the only way to appreciate life.

Written with a pen. Sealed with a kiss. I'm here for you. And if I die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you.

When asked this riddle, 80% of kindergarten kids got the answer, compared to 17% of Stanford University Seniors.

What is greater than God, More evil than the devil, The poor have it, The rich need it, And if you eat it you'll die?

I found this very much like Paul Harvey. Even though he has really annoying music, he always has good points to make. Please post your answers in the comments of this section. In a couple of days I'll will let you know the answer and who was right. Happy commenting!!!